Two Nights, One Day

^Ew, Old Photo Of Me.^

So,
Honestly, How to Contain myself i know not.
IM LEAVING!
departing, Clearing out, Heading out,
Embarking.

How will it turn out? well First off, i know ill be the darkest chocolate when i return from the sweltering southern heat and blazing sun.
But another thing i hope to be,
renewed.

Its going to be such an emotional journey for me, i know that. It always is such an adventure but this time it will be a bit more emotional and moving than it ever has been.
well after all, the marriage of your best friend, your inspiration, your motivation, your sister would never be anything less.

how do you prepare your self mentally? Honestly i keep thinking to myself, if i cry as hard as i normally do when i am that emotional, i will ruin all her wedding photos.

Of course its a beautiful thing, so amazing and ravishing.
But i cant pretend that there aren't some sad parts to it.
My sister is now a member of a new family, she is no longer what i am, she is no longer a Gautam
[hmmm doesnt sound too bad) no, but really, Its hard to watch your sister begin a new life and know this one is soon going to be her past life.

But im excited for her too, i love her and im so glad she is going to be a happy married young lady for the rest of her life. She will have a constant supporter, encourager and some one to love her at all times and take care of her. OH Boy knowing Rosy , she wont be holding back any of her stories... hmmmm uh ohh.

But really Raleigh is so much more to me than my getaway.
The Most amazing friends, Amazing Encounters with God, And quality time with the one who loves me most, my sister.

This is a different life that is away from the pains, struggles and even the goodness of the one here in Toronto. I get to have a different life, different routines and different agendas. I get to be free from what holds me here in Toronto, free from the same old repetitive stories, and the same old schedule. I get to be free from familiarity and discover adventure. Raleigh is a change from this life, and after all who couldn't use a little change?

So Raleigh here i come,
I hope your ready for me,
and that there is lots of extra Kleenex in the city, cuz after all ...
Rosy is getting Married!